Libray of Congress 1999


2nd Edition 2009



 I N T R O D U C T I O N

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Born into a world such as we live in, requires questioning and research to sustain life and provide the courage to keep trying no matter what. We have to learn to land on our feet and move on knowing we are only passing through. Living life to the fullest, I realized that we are not only physical but spiritual creatures. We are on a journey to an everlasting existence. The question we struggle with is how we spend eternity? We consciously make that decision whether we know it or not.

The world is irrelevant. It will keep spinning in space with or without us. Just the fact that the earth is not attached to anything and keeps spinning in predictable unison with other planets in our galaxy should make us realize there is more to life then just making a living and having a family. It is obvious that there is a creator. We are taught that we are dead yet alive if we ignore God. All humans will be alive forever. What is relevant is our eternal life and where we’ll spend it.

This book reveals the resistance Christians are up against in our enemy Satan who only works to undermine believers in Christ Jesus. Satan knows where he is going and wants all of humanity to join him. Those who have sworn their allegiance to him already are no problem to him. Like Jesus Christ, who preached only three years, was crucified because Satan hated Him, we become the object of Satan’s hatred as well. Had Jesus weakened and let Satan tempt Him, He would have been King of this world for a season and the whole world would have ended up in hell forever.

Every man, woman, and child’s salvation hung on one man. To prove to us that we can depend on Him forever, He weakened Himself by fasting 40 days before He was confronted with the offer to possess the whole world. If He was 100% human and 100% Spirit, He experienced everything humans do, yet gave Himself to be humiliated, be bled and died for our sakes who are completely undeserving as you will see in this book.

God knows our lot, that we have no chance of making it to Heaven on our own. We can try as hard as we want; Satan derails us at every turn without God’s intervention. Most of us believe that we are good people and would not hurt anyone, go to church on Sunday and earn our wages by the sweat of our brow. That is well and good, but we tend to be rebels spiritually. We want to do it our way instead of studying the Bible we read other books and listen to evangelists in the hope that’s going to get us to heaven. Nothing could be further from the truth.

In my case raised in an affluent household I never thought I’d be confronted with utter poverty like I was. God is love and since we are in the likeness of God we all have love inherent in us. Some are aware of it and others not. Love and hate are parallel and if you have ever noticed it is very easy to go from love to hate. Love is God and hate is Satan. The minute we have unmet needs, Satan is going to be there with his solutions. Both God and Satan have a price for their services. When we reach out to God for help, the price is to know His Word enough so we apply it correctly and reap the benefits. We also have to learn to listen to the still small voice of the Holy Spirit. He is in believers and signals to us when we need to deal with an issue and immediately act on it or we lose. It takes practice and we learn by trial and error like a baby that skins its knees learning how to walk.

Satan’s price is violating the Word of God. Satan expects us to engage in behavior that grieves God. When we participate in Satan’s tools we reap God’s wrath. The Bible warns that we can even lose our souls.

When we engage in activity that seems to be godly and are too ignorant to see the problem God has given us a way out because Satan is too cunning for those who do not read or understand the Bible. I found that I wanted to read the Bible but it seemed cryptic to me, I could not make head or tail out of it. My sister said, to her the Old Testament stories were simply romantic stories. She couldn’t figure out what she was supposed to learn from it. Until we truly receive the Holy Spirit we cannot understand the Bible.

It is veiled to people who are not committed to Jesus Christ like a Bride is committed to her Bridegroom. That is not just casual but a deep relationship that lasts forever. Why? The relationship is based on unconditional love. When there are no conditions to be filled in a relationship, there are no disappointments and it lasts forever.

There is no sin in that kind of a relationship because Jesus died for every sin that was ever committed. If we continue to sin deliberately we do not have the Holy Spirit in us and are not part of the Bride of Christ. We know when we have the Holy Spirit because He controls our behavior. The Apostle Paul shared: “But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.(2 Corinthians 4:7 KJV)For ye see your calling, brethren, how that not many wise men after the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called: But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty; And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are: That no flesh should glory in his presence.(1 Corinthians 1:26-29 KJV)

This book is meant for readers who want to know the truth, which rests in the reality of Jesus Christ. The book is not to be viewed as an attack on segments of society, but is meant to hold suggestions as to how Christians can exist and live their faith within today's pagan society. It proves that endurance to the end should be a top priority. Complacency is Satan's favorite playground to bring Jesus Christ down in us. Every person is in the Book of Life until they deny or reject Jesus Christ's existence; only then is their name blotted out.

During my travel through life, I met few people who truly had a testimony of Jesus Christ. That realization motivated me to share my discoveries. The devil’s focal point is to destroy Jesus Christ in us and he has thousands of devices to get the job done. We cannot come to Christ Jesus without the knowledge that He really exists. It takes believing that Christ Jesus is God’s Word that became flesh.

He is our creator. Jesus Christ is God’s first begotten Son and that He, Jesus Christ; God the Father and God the Holy Spirit, are One God in three persons. See: John 1:1-4; 10-14; 1 John 5:7 (KJV) Remember that only the Body of Christ Jesus has the one and only God in three persons. All other denominations and religions are monotheists. That is going to be extremely good to know since major movements are destroying the Biblical concepts today. The history of creation has been removed and replaced by evolution. Evolution has been proven to be an impossibility mathematically and so far people have not come up with an alternative teaching to avoid bringing the history of creation back into the schools. This faulty teaching has had the most devastating effects on today's society.

From my own life, I realized the importance of discovering God in my heart early in life, to develop that personal relationship that became the guiding hand so essential through perilous times. Relying on preachers to share the true history of humanity was wrong on my part. The truth did not penetrate until I studied it myself. The Scriptures are a God breathed history and prophecy of God’s promises and their fulfillment daily. We can prove its authenticity by applying biblical principles to our every day life. They work. God teaches us through His Son, prophets and apostles how to resist the devil.

The circumstances I grew up under gave me an unusual awareness and made me dig for answers of what life was all about. It didn’t make much sense to me. God performed a miraculous victory in my case considering where I came from and what I had to work through. I could not have maintained on my own. The story will bear that out. We plan our course, but God determines the steps and often derails what we set out to do unless our plans line up with His. “It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God. But call to remembrance the former days, in which, after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflictions;” (Hebrews 10:31-32 KJV)

Christians may object to the handling of this life. It will test Christian's understanding of God's methods of administering discipline. God has to tame (temper, mellow, soften us) to bring us into line with His will for us and His will is to become a harvester of souls, a fisher of men and women by allowing the Holy Spirit to indwell us and use our bodies for His purposes. That is why Jesus taught the following:

Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you. Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men. Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” (Matthew 5:3-16 KJV)

Evangelists persuade the public to be born again with the conviction; once saved, always saved and the new Christian becomes a victim of the diabolic devices of Satan unless he or she begins a daily disciplined walk of Bible study. Becoming a disciple of Christ Jesus is not about just following Him and telling others about it. “The word disciple is derived from `dis', - apart, and ‘cipere’ to hold, to take, to seize. 1. A ’pupil’ follower of Jesus. The word disciple comes from the word discipline: 1. A branch of knowledge or learning; 2. Training that develops self- control, character, or orderliness and efficiency; 3. The result of such training; 4. Acceptance of or submission to authority and control (in our case as Christians, submission to the Holy Spirit, Who is part of the God head)” – The source of the explanations is Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance of the Bible.

This account is about false teachers who appeal to our sinful nature and entice us who are just barely escaping from those who live in error. They promise freedom, while they themselves are slaves to depravity. A man is a slave to whatever has mastered him as the apostle Paul states in 2 Peter 2:17- 22. If we have escaped the corruption of the world by knowing our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and are again entangled in it and overcome by it, we are worse off at the end then we were at the beginning and a fool like me repeated that folly over and over until I did what God asks of all of us, study the Word of God to understand my plight from a spiritual perspective. I couldn’t win without first doing that.

There is a judgment for believers as well as unbelievers. Believers are judged for how they spend their time. God expects us to dedicate a reasonable amount of time to Him. Believers will not be in the final judgment, the second Resurrection. Believers are raised into eternal life in heaven at the First Resurrection / Rapture.

The future of unbelievers according to 2 Peter 3:7,8 is: “But the heavens and the earth, which are now, by the same word are kept in store, reserved unto fire against the day of judgment and perdition of ungodly men. But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.” The `Day of Judgment' is coming when the earth will be destroyed by fire after the devil and those who are ungodly and do not wish to go to heaven will be placed in the lake of fire forever. “And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death. And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire.” (Revelation 20:14-15 KJV)

There are some who teach that the lake of fire is a temporary state and that after cremation of bodies takes place, they simply become ashes. Nothing is further from the truth. Scripture states that the ‘last enemy that shall be destroyed is death.’ Death is also thrown into the lake of fire; in other words, it ceases to exist.. That proves that the lake of fire is eternal. This event is called the ‘second death.’ In the second death there is no separation of soul and body as in the case of the first death. That means there will be full awareness of the condition that the body is in. Obviously the suffering will be eternally excruciating. We certainly do not wish to see our loved ones in this situation.

Death, in any form, is the penalty of law. It is attended with pain. It cuts off from hope, from friends, from enjoyment. It subjects him or her who dies to a much-dreaded condition. In all these respects it was proper to call the final condition of the wicked death, even though their soul would live. There is no evidence that John om the Book of John, meant to affirm that the second death would imply an extinction of existence. See "death and hell" Hosea 13:14; 1 Corinthians 15:26,54; "lake of fire" Matthew 25:41

This day is the last day of the `Lord's Day'. Our only opportunity to bypass the final judgment completely is this moment. We may die in the next moment. By just believing that Jesus is the Christ, the first begotten Son of God, who shed His blood out of His Body from the cross to literally wash 'our' sins away into the sea of forgetfulness, that He resurrected on the third day and gave His Holy Spirit Who set about to gather all who wish to go to heaven back to our Lord and Savior Christ Jesus. When we are confronted with this event and say “yes Lord, I wish to be Your Bride” the Holy Spirit takes residence in our hearts and begins to bring us into awareness of our sinful nature and helplessness and makes us realize that our only hope is Christ Jesus. Depending on how we have lived to this point, we begin to feel sorrow about our past and wish that we had done this long ago. Repentance is to stop doing things that grieve the Holy Spirit.

Because the Holy Spirit begins to coach us, our lives change. Our lives are now under attack by Satan and we become aware of the Holy Spirit in us because He empowers us to overcome the world. When we don’t heed Him we will know because doing it in the physical without Him is to fail every time.

The journey was long and tedious and often discouraging, but His promises are in the Bible and only those who endure to the end will get the ring. An awareness of the empty space inside that yearns for this loving Holy Spirit to enter is for real. Then when He lives in that space it is filled with the peace that is beyond all understanding. When it first happens the joy is as indescribable as falling in love with the man or woman of one’s dreams. There comes a desire to shout it from the rooftop that never leaves. The joy calms down like it does in marriage when the daily routine sets in of being married to man or woman, as well as Jesus Christ.

When I got to that point, God had a whole agenda ready to go which has not stopped to this day. It was shock and awe to say the least that God had been in my life really all my life preparing me for that day. I had all the skills I needed, the equipment necessary to go public and the funding from my own past to keep the balls in the air. He had led me through many facets in society that are satanic to share with others so they could be set free as I had. I knew all my life at some point I would be doing what I am doing today but it took many years before God opened the door for me to actually do it. Had I run ahead of Him, heresy is what I would have been teaching. We definitely have to have patience and wait on God. He is working on us as in Isaiah 64:8 “But now, O LORD, thou art our father; we are the clay, and thou our potter; and we all are the work of thy hand.”

The `Lord's Day' is described in 2 Peter 3:8 to be equivalent to a 1000 years in God's mind. This day includes the dreaded seven-year tribulation, which hangs over civilization suspended without dates. Because God's patience is incredible, He does not want anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance. He is waiting as long as He possibly can. But in Luke 12:39, He shares with us that He will suddenly come like a thief in the night at an hour when we least expect it and warns us in Luke 21:34-36 “And take heed to yourselves, lest at any time your hearts be overcharged with surfeiting, and drunkenness, and cares of this life, and so that day come upon you unawares. For as a snare shall it come on all them that dwell on the face of the whole earth. Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man.” “Take ye heed, watch and pray: for ye know not when the time is. (Mark 13:33 KJV)

When I read Luke 21:36 I question the word ‘accounted worthy’. What does Luke refer to since we are saved by the mere fact that we believe that Jesus Christ is God Himself in flesh and that He died for our sins. The Jamieson-Fausset- Brown Commentary explains this verse 36 to mean: ”Watch . . . pray, the two great duties which in prospect of trial are constantly enjoined. These warnings, suggested by the need of preparedness for the tremendous calamities approaching, and the total wreck of the existing state of things, are the general improvement of the whole discourse, carrying the mind forward to Judgment and Vengeance of another kind and on a grander and more awful scale--not ecclesiastical or political but personal, not temporal but eternal--when all safety and blessedness will be found to lie in being able to "STAND BEFORE THE SON OF MAN" in the glory of His personal appearing.”

We stand before Jesus Christ with His righteousness, rather than our own, which was imputed to us when we came to Him in repentance. The Bible describes this event as the wedding between the bride of Christ, His church, and Jesus Christ. Anyone who attends this wedding in a wedding dress that is incorrect is told to leave. The wedding dress is the righteousness of Jesus Christ. We can’t lose if we have the Word in us and understand the truth. During the tribulation discussed in the final pages of this book, the heavens disappear with a roar, elements will be destroyed by fire. Christians are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth. The corruption described in the following pages caused by evil desires of people will come to a climax when the Antichrist becomes the only world leader.

Jesus taught two simple commandments, which covers all requirements of us: “Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.(Matthew 22:37-40 KJV)

To escape this wrath and to make our calling and election sure and preventing us from falling, we must do what He tells us to in 2 Peter 1:1-14 “Simon Peter, a servant and an apostle of Jesus Christ, to them that have obtained like precious faith with us through the righteousness of God and our Saviour Jesus Christ: Grace and peace be multiplied unto you through the knowledge of God, and of Jesus our Lord, According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue: Whereby are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises: that by these ye might be partakers of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust. And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge; And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness; And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity.

"For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But he that lacketh these things is blind, and cannot see afar off, and hath forgotten that he was purged from his old sins. Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall: For so an entrance shall be ministered unto you abundantly into the everlasting kingdom of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Wherefore I will not be negligent to put you always in remembrance of these things, though ye know them, and be established in the present truth. Yea, I think it meet, as long as I am in this tabernacle, to stir you up by putting you in remembrance; Knowing that shortly I must put off this my tabernacle, even as our Lord Jesus Christ hath shewed me.”

The confession in the following chapters proves that whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that the Holy Spirit produced the victory. “No man, when he hath lighted a candle, putteth it in a secret place, neither under a bushel, but on a candlestick, that they which come in may see the light.” (Luke 11:33 KJV)

The struggle between principalities becomes clearly evident and will bring the reader's memories into focus in relation to God and our adversary and shed light on those episodes. What became clear while writing was our three dimensional existence: the flesh, the soul (mind) and the spirit. Our soul is our awareness of this physical existence in our environment, which can be called our horizontal view. The vertical awareness only comes by accepting the Word of God as truth. We can only acknowledge that when we have the Holy Spirit who witnesses to our spirit and empowers us to communicate with God. God is Spirit. These two perceptions make up the cross. “Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.” (Matthew 16:24-25 KJV)

The direct spiritual growth came by continuously contending for the faith no matter what was happening. The discoveries that the Bible is true come by comparing the circumstances with the Bible. The realization that the encounters are natural was a byproduct. The goal was to be obedient but ignorance spawned continuous obstacles. The writer really had no plans of her own other than just getting through on God’s terms. She knew God and trusted Him every step of the way. “Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone?(Matthew 7:9 KJV)

Since we are vessels on a potter’s wheel, the process does not feel very comfortable. Life often does not make sense, because we do not know God’s goal for us. If God were to tell us what He is going to do with us, we would probably resign on the spot. Like physical marriage, spiritual marriage is much the same. God keeps us from the truth so nature can take its course. Then one day the truth becomes a reality in Christ Jesus when He reveals Himself. Our worship of Him then becomes sharing the good news that He is forever faithful. “Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.” (John 14:6 KJV) A hymn from John Newton that was given to John by a Jewish friend in London in 1946, sums up what this story is about. The old hymns characterize not only profound theology, but also a logical progression from the first verse through the end.

 "I ask the Lord that I might grow in wisdom, love and every grace, might of His salvation know, seek more earnestly His face.

T'was He who taught me thus to pray and He I trust has answered prayer, but it has been in such a way it almost drove me to despair.

I thought that in some favorite hour at once he'd answer my request, and by his love's sustaining power
subdue my sins, and give me rest.

Instead of this He made me feel the hidden evils of my heart and let the angry powers of hell assault my soul in every part.

Nay more with His own hand he seemed intent to aggravate my vow broke all the fair designs I schemed
blasted my gourds and laid me low, Lord why is this I trembling cried wilt thou pursue thy worm to death?

T'is in this way the Lord replied I answer prayer for grace and faith. These inward struggles I employ from self in pride to set thee free
and break thy schemes of earthly joy that thou mayest find thy all in me.”

John Newton