Seasick on a bunk in a room with thirty-four other women, I was
talk myself into calming down. Biting off more than
I could chew was my
middle name already then. The large troopship I had boarded in
Bremerhaven, Germany was climbing twenty foot waves maneuvering
through the foamy saltwater. It was January of 1947 and freezing
cold in the
middle of the Atlantic. Two weeks it was going to last, before
anchor in New York. The oily odor mixed with the smell of fish
cigarette smoke was causing my stomach to rise every time I attempted
get on deck to satisfy my curiosity. Incapacitated from experiencing
of adventure, I laid there wondering what to do about my condition.
was chaperoning me. Help did not seem within reach, because I
was shy and
just sixteen. The ship was pointing west cutting through the
A whole new life was about to begin for me. My family had lived
Niagara Falls by Buffalo, New York for seven years and returned
Germany in 1933, a year well remembered by millions. Adolf Hitler
into power 1933 and we as a family were about to experience Nazism
quite different from the American life style.
There were three little girls. One of the sisters had to stay
behind in New
York. She was an invalid. As it turned out in Germany it was
decision, which saved my sisters life. Invalids had no
place in Hitler's
society. Remaining in the U.S. allowed her to live to the age
My family planned to come back to New York but life has a way
controls out of our hands and going off in other directions.
My dad began building his own business and became quite successful
under the Hitler Regime without having to join the party and
that wasnt so
easy. To get privileges one would usually have to join. In my
dads case good family names gained them many privileges
that were not
available in the U.S.
Adolf Hitler was an occultist, which had effects on many years
of my life.
Martin Luther the reformer was the only theologian I grew up
with. I was
always an activist and my curiosity knows no limits. It is extraordinary
where it led me over time.
The first thing the family, grandparents, insisted on when my
arrived back in Germany was baptism. I was three and needed to
baptized according to the Lutheran belief. At fourteen in the
teachings is confirmation. At the parish we attended two years
of classes to
make us eligible for confirmation. Religion was part of the public
curriculum. Hitler was supposedly a Christian like many politicians
There were no child labor laws in Germany. In fact Hitler encouraged
Hitler Youth to work to help farmers since the men were all drafted
to go to war. The women had to take the place of their men at
business had to continue without my father.
Just remember now when I share this that I was an innocent child
when two major events happened. They were first grade and the
Youth. I still remember how I was looking forward to wearing
a sport shirt
with the swastika on the breast area It is amazing that Hitler
could not wait
to hang his evil symbols on all his German folk including the
it remind you of the Mark of the Beast? The fact that I was looking
to it shows indoctrination had taken place. In the U.S. we call
it fads. In
raising kids you get it when they get into school. They wont
that is out of style. It has a tendency to unify people. Hitlers
focus was on
unity of the Fatherland and they were all to be purebred Germans.
I later traced my roots in Germany and found it still had a caste
which I traced back to the twelve hundreds when Freemasonry became
means of segregating people into groups of similar professions,
political persuasions and wealth. Ones future depended
on the segment of
society one was born into. In one sense it was protective but
restricting. People had to stay in their own levels. In our case
independent business people in the hotel business.
My parents were not only perfectly suited to each other, but
much in love. My mother insisted my father was her one and only.
in Europe families stay in the same locations for hundreds of
names are just about the most important possession a male can
Females marry, but men have to watch over their surname carefully.
Honoring one's name was a high priority. The whole family depended
A worthy name meant a good credit rating automatically. Fortunately,
family line was such. My mother and father's families had lived
in the same
location for hundreds of years.
In Europe, young people began thinking about marriage at fourteen.
Matchmaking often came through parents especially when there
businesses involved. Having them and grandparents near, secured
coaching. Love was a hope but not considered essential. A strong
existence was the basis for a good life. It meant having afternoon
pastry breaks; playing cards till two o clock in the morning,
and having a good, clear, foamy glass of beer with a ham sandwich.
through the woods for an hour was also a treasured activity.
on the simple life. They worked hard, but also cultivated special
My state of mind at sixteen was marriage and motherhood. I was
about having a large family.
By the time the war broke out in 1939, my dad had three major
going. In the city he was running a nightclub and bowling alley
and in the
country a hotel. Everyone in the family had to do their part
tasks. Children were told they were to inherit everything, which
them to work hard. There was no depression, boredom, nor lack
People had known each other for generations. Life was wholesome.
The nightclub in the city was open till four in the morning seven
week. Every month my father hired a new band and entertainers
mother stood behind the bar to fill orders for the waitresses
Keeping track of us little girls was not too easy for them. When
a car hit my
sister we moved to the hotel in the country. My father found
a buyer for the
The country was ideal for children. The little town of two thousand
inhabitants was a resort on a beautiful lake. A boat dock kept
from drifting off and sprawled onto the lake. Paddle boats and
were high enough to hide in. Ice-skating in the winter and swimming
summer kept us happy between chores. The lake framed by a lushly
cultivated forest of a variety of trees and the lake had a mysterious
the middle of it. On Saturdays people swept the sidewalks. Life
revolved around little gardens, raising a pig or two, geese,
and dogs and cats, very uncomplicated and cherished.
If a child takes life serious that would be a time for decisions
how to live
life. Mine was to have lots of kids with a good husband for life
life according to Gods teaching. I was attracted to church.
I hung around the
big organ to help keep it going. Air had to be pumped by standing
that went up and down. If I wasnt there, I was watching
over the family
grave site planting and weeding keeping it looking good. Another
place was my old grandpas garden with strawberries, cherries
everything imaginable to harvest. He had arthritis, lived alone
help. Every so often I had to get coal for his stove in a wagon
distributor at least an hour walk away. The family across from
our place had
a grocery store run by a mother of two kids. She had an open
leg that would
not heal. I spent time there to help in the grocery store and
with her kids. I
still hear my mother calling me across the parking lot to tend
to the garden,
animals or clean the house.
Gardening and growing a whole variety of fruits and vegetables,
My mother hummed a tune under her breath and I sang along. There
never ending chores with the three-day laundries on scrub boards
pots for boiling of clothes. Although frozen water pumps defrosted
heated water, table cloths had to be part of the setting for
Sundays revolved around handmade ice-cream and dishes up to the
My father was strict and demanded perfection. Obedience was easy
When his or her voice called, there was no hesitation. Teachers
were familiar with the rod to maintain order.
On the shores of the forest was a red brick, old Lutheran Church
high steeple reaching up into the sky. It had large clanging
bells that rang
through the village on Sundays. At weddings and funerals they
people to come together to celebrate or mourn. The church and
the 700-yearold tree in town were the big tourist attractions.
The church held a carved altar that was famous for it's artist.
A jealous man had thrown acid on the artists eyes and blinded
My father had just completed reconstructing the restaurant. He
had built a
dance floor in the garden and terraces surrounded with glass
walls to shelter
guests from breezes across the lake. Pansies were lining brick
Flagstones framed the large well-kept lawns. Sometimes we had
pastry there ourselves and marveled at father's ingenuity.
World War II had been going on for six months when we received
letter stating: "report for duty in the German Infantry,
mother found herself suddenly in charge of the business and her
children. The draft notice reached my dad at age thirty-six.
He had not
joined any party and had suffered discrimination that continued
war. He spent five years in the trenches in the infantry and
on all fronts.
- That became a nightmare for my mother.
His profession proved to be a God sent. It kept him cooking for
soldiers slightly behind the front lines. Separation from his
family lasted six years.
The Hitler regime had been in total control for seven years and
visible and audible. Young children had to hail every schoolteacher
people in authority by throwing their hand in the air at an angle
down. Hitler decreed that each child at age six enter the Hitler
youth. It was
mandatory to come to meetings on Saturdays to sing and march
streets in uniform. My mother was constantly in trouble with
because she needed us for chores and tried to keep us home. Hitler
youth separate by gender. The activities revolved around discipline,
The hard part was singing patriotic songs for hours holding ones
in the air saluting flags. There was much talk in school about
patriotism and loyalty. I played the accordion and patriotic
marches were the
theme of those days, many of them. When the war broke out, all
related to the soldiers fighting for the fatherland. People's
attitudes were full
of enthusiasm and high expectation for the future in spite of
was not what one would expect in a war because of music. Life
went on as
usual. My mothers motto was that man gets used to anything.
Hitler had won the people over by giving them what they wanted
His regime geared into mass-producing housing projects and cars.
cheap cruises available to the working class. The economy was
with jobs because Hitlers focus was on the working class.
He was on
speaking tours constantly. His excitement saturated all of Germany.
powerful demeanor demanded respect for authority. People were
in fear of
him. On the other hand he promised people a secure future.
As the Nazi party developed, they began monitoring people. The
`Partei' had enlisted civilians who were endorsing the organization,
them in uniforms like the Hitler youth for meetings and identification
the leadership. Otherwise they were in civilian clothes. Neighbors
spying on neighbors. The people, who did not agree and voiced
disappeared without notice to family members. Not everyone joined
party, which was to their disadvantage economically and physically.
Historical writings state that only five percent of the population
in Nazi party of the adult population. My mother taught us early
not to run
in groups and to remain silent if possible. My girlfriend's father
himself in a camp one day. Until his release nobody knew what
him. He had a reputation of a self-made, freethinking merchandiser.
had taken him to a small detention center for molestation purposes.
- Someone reported his anti Hitler comments.
He said they tried to break him down by making him submit to
demoralizing acts, including crawling through sewers. He said,
he got through by determining not to falter. They finally released
him. This incident taught me that the environment could be controlled
by self-restraint and was my first contact with willpower.
The regime forbade listening to shortwave radios. Censoring of
was no secret. Cinema houses presented documentaries of the war.
was not a sign of what was going on behind closed doors. Living
sleepy villages in northern Germany, it never occurred to people
going to happen next. People say that Germany is the size of
square miles. It is smaller, 181,000 square miles in size. The
the opposite. In mid nineteen hundreds, Texas had a population
and Germany has ten times that,. 66,000,000 people live in it.
caused large losses of human lives during the war. It has many
villages and big cities. The cities are mutually exclusive specializing
factories, shipyards, tourist attractions and such.
Adolf Hitler was not originally a German citizen. Christened
in the little
Roman Catholic parish church in Braunau, Austria, confirmed his
be Adolf Hitler, born on April 20, 1889. Ironically Buddhas
April 20, and he displays a swastika on his chest in Hong Kong.
wrote that Hitler had an exceedingly happy childhood. As a choirboy
server in the chancel of the Lambach Church, he saw a carving
of a swastika
for the first time. He was fond of pointing out later that he
had serious plans
of becoming a priest, and take Holy Orders. His upbringing was
Benedictine Monastery deeply involved with occult teachings.
This came to
the surface later in life. He did not smoke and avoided alcoholic
was reportedly a Vegetarian for many years. There is a strong
chance that he
was a virgin, although the Mormons claim that he had a wife in
years. I have never heard that anywhere else.
Going back in Hitlers life a bit, Hitler enlisted in World
War I. Both sides
used gas. On the 13th of October 1918 Hitler found himself gassed
blinded. Pasewalk is a small garrison town 140 miles northeast
His blindness was temporary, and his doctors diagnosed the problem
`hysteria'. During his stay at the hospital Hitler claimed to
`voices', which he likened to those, heard by Joan of Arc. Those
him that he was selected by God to be Germany's messiah. He would
Germany from the claws of international Jewry.
Conditions in Germany had grown progressively worse after the
World War. In later 1918 the German mark was worth nearly 24
before the end of 1921 it had dropped to 1 1/2 cents. In 1922
the value went
to 1/4 cent, and by early 1923, 7,000 marks purchased one U.S.
midyear a dollar could buy about 150,000 marks, and before the
was over, one million. It was a dark period of chaos, desperation
many, actual starvation. In 1920 hunger was widespread.
Hitler's faith in his future was `unshakable'. As an eighteen
year old he did
not doubt that he would some day possess the money and power
necessary to carry out even the most grand of his projects. He
was a fervent and incessant reader of both popular and technical
books on architecture and art. Hitlers private books were
many volumes on nutrition, health and health food, folk medicine,
homeopathy, miracle healing, the occult and magic symbols. In
1932 Adolf Hitler became a German citizen. Eva Braun became his
mistress after three years of acquaintance.
- On January 30th, 1933 Reichs Chancellor
Paul von Hindenburg appointed Hitler. "If these elections
help us to place 60 to 70 of our agitators into the various parliaments,
then the state itself will help to equip our fighting machinery
and pay for its upkeep. Let no one think that parliamentarianism
is our Damascus we come as enemies! We come amongst you as the
wolf comes amongst the sheep," Hitler remarked.
Though he had never left the Catholic Church, Hitler discontinued
church taxes after 1933. After 1933 Goebbels became Hitler's
Propaganda and Enlightenment, perfecting his policy of `the big
lie.' He was
dynamic and unscrupulous derived from agony of a clubfoot. All
and protections were cast aside. Many of the prisoners were beaten,
tortured, or even murdered. He increased from 100,000 to 300,000
membership of the swaggering, radical and severe storm troopers.
Party, which had swelled to nearly 3,000,000 (5%) out of 60,000,000
populations soon after Hitler became Chancellor. Hitler used
the SS as his
private executioners. He descended in person on his old friend
Rohm at a
Bavarian resort for a SA conference.
- A sudden and savage bloodbath followed.
Rohm had helped put Hitler in power, and murdered other SA leaders
and aides. Hitler had taken the law wholly into his own hands.
Germany permitted only parties or organizations within the Nazi
structure. Economic crisis of the postwar years marked by mass
unemployment. currency inflation strengthened extremist parties
and wiped out a large fraction of the middle class. Extreme nationalists
adopted terrorist tactics and merged with the National Socialist
party. In 1929 another mass unemployment and virtual bankruptcy
of Germany brought major gains to communists. The dictator abolished
powers of state government and became the focal point of every
aspect of German life.
A state of hypnotic communion developed between this leader and
faithful followers. Germany awake! Using magical power and simple
imagery, Hitler taught people to believe in themselves. He won
the hearts of
the German people as the savior of the world on the brink of
was the embodiment of an Adam-god that spawned the most monstrous
careers in history.
Hitler and his inner circle spread fear, but millions flocked
to his banners
and people's lives meant nothing to them. Adolf was a loud mouth
passionate and angry, studying the audience with a manic intensity,
after speech. He kept changing with the mood of the people. He
reactions and adjusted to the public's needs. He gave them what
they needed to get their attention: jobs, fun, a reason for existence
and social programs. Keeping the crowd waiting raised the tension
and masses switched off thinking processes. In awe they listened
to descriptions of goals he set for them as a mighty folk. He
formed many personal relationships with people in the crowds.
People did not realize this leader's motivation. It was
vengeance. His goal was to transfer the vengeance to his audience.
- It took three years to organize into
a tight party that stopped at nothing and attracted thousands.
Hitler took full advantage of conditions and they flocked to
him. The middle class pinned their hope on him. He wanted to
do it alone. He did not accept bribes. He was as an Omnipresent
Messiah, engineered with precision. He was on the road full time
speaking about the future, tearing down social barriers, arising
into a new community of the people. People convinced they could
count on him were hundreds and thousands of the middle class
and the poor. By 1935 he was promoting family fun and
folklore. Souvenirs of Hitler became big business. He promoted
participation in work and developing ability Work began on the
He had posters throughout Germany of young healthy men and women
expressing energy dynamics that served to restore national pride
During rallies display of thousands of flags flaunted a new order.
of flagpoles was an eagle on a wreath with a swastika in the
had a fascination for Geometry. He celebrated many memorials
spectacular display of large blocks of people marching honoring
than life. He had passion for night ceremonies with mystical
rituals and fires.
With upraised arms, hailing Hitler and their new flag, people
bliss, excitement and happiness listening to him describing their
future. For a
little while life became good and employment was plentiful. The
worked hard on their image and developed many events to raise
image. They advertised strength through joy, the good life and
Community is everything, the individual nothing. The world was
impression of peace with a modern industrial state leading the
Magical, sinister blood banners, hundreds of them, garnered with
Sun burst topped by swastikas embracing Adolfs thundering
"Germany in front of us and Germany behind us and Germany
in us!" These
blood banners received special treatment from the Fuehrer (Adolf
touched every flag physically and performed a ritual to instill
of ceremony and idolatry. A passion for architecture, Adolf stood
like a god,
fulfilling his wildest dreams in constructing monuments to his
taste. On his
fiftieth birthday, there was a massive military parade. Hitler
was a master in
the art of deception. He thought of war only and became commander
as savior of the world.
Authority based on terror in `The Third Reich' enforced free
freedom of assembly. Later authorized house searches without
seizure of property without due process became prevalent. A show
eliminated opposition. Many former doubters got the point quickly
conformed to Hitlers bold decisions. His only opponents
were the Catholic
and Lutheran Churches and they were tax-supported institutions.
crushed all opposition in the `Blood Purge' of 1934.
European leaders flocked to him to hear his `will'. Herman Wilhelm
Goehring found himself in charge of the air force, the Gestapo
police) and the German economy in 1937. Hitler's inner circle
mystics with their own agenda. The practice of astrology by this
public knowledge. Kubizek, who observed personal situations told
anger: "...The eyes glittered. There was something sinister
about them. He
stood for hours in front of a mirror practicing his stare. The
goal was to melt
an opponent with a glare that was straight from the pit. Few
meetings with Hitler unaffected."
Adolf Hitler not only told 66 million people he would meet their
needs but preyed on their biblical illiteracy. His favorite subject
oppression of Germans by the Jewish bankers. Hitler often compared
himself favorably with Jesus and thought himself to be on a `great
of freeing Germany from the Jews.
`Wolf' was Hitler's personal namesake and a fascination for him.
name `Adolf' is a modern derivative of the older Germanic name
correlating to `noble wolf'. The SS, Hitler's private army, called
affectionately: `My pack of wolves, who would `soon be
blood'. In the Scriptures Satan and his cohorts are sometimes
The police kept a registry of all residents and transients. All
Germany had to report change of addresses within two weeks. On
1935, the Nazis issued a definition of how to differentiate a
Jew. A mandate
went out for all families to trace their genealogy four generations
Jewish ancestors and report their findings for a detection of
It was Himmler who ordered the famous Hitler horoscope of January
1933, the day on which Hitler came to power.
- That horoscope made Josef Goebbels resort
to astrology during the last two weeks of their lives. In charge
of propaganda astrological information suited his purposes to
proclaim a positive agenda for Hitler. His office released alleged
astrological predictions of German victory. The horoscopes predicted
the outbreak of war in 1939 and three years of extreme hardship
and privation, culminating in 1948 with the emergence of a Greater
German Reich. These predictions were tools to keep people from
getting nervous about their future. Occultists know that astrology
is a farce.
If Adolf Hitler and his disciples were Christians, as some people
they helped God, Colossians 2:20 could be applied to settle that
once and for all: "Wherefore if ye be dead with Christ
rudiments of the world, why, as though living in the world, are
subject to ordinances, Its obvious God did not employ
Scriptures Hitler was addressing were Deuteronomy 18:14, where
addresses the Jews: "For these nations, which thou shalt
hearkened unto observers of times, and unto diviners: but as
the LORD thy God hath not suffered thee so to do. "Their
shall be multiplied that hasten after another god: their drink
of blood will I not offer, nor take up their names into my lips.
Speaking of drink offerings of blood, Germans had several
involved pigs blood. One was made of vinegar and blood
with large wheat
balls, the other was bloodwurst for sandwiches. Had they known
16:4, they would have refrained from eating blood.
If thou wilt not observe to do all the words of this
law that are
written in this book, that thou mayest fear this glorious and
name, THE LORD THY GOD; (Deuteronomy
This prophecy applied to Adolf Hitler and his folk who had their
to worship. "Moreover all these curses shall come upon
thee, and shall
pursue thee, and overtake thee, till thou be destroyed; because
hearkenedst not unto the voice of the LORD thy God, to keep his
commandments and his statutes which he commanded thee: And they
shall be upon thee for a sign and for a wonder, and upon thy
ever. Because thou servedst not the LORD thy God with joyfulness,
with gladness of heart, for the abundance of all things; Therefore
thou serve thine enemies which the LORD shall send against thee,
hunger, and in thirst, and in nakedness, and in want of all things:
shall put a yoke of iron upon thy neck, until he have destroyed
- The LORD shall bring a nation
against thee from far, from the end
of the earth, as swift as the eagle flieth; a nation whose tongue
thou shalt not understand; A nation of fierce countenance, which
shall not regard the person of the old, nor shew favour to the
young: And he shall eat the fruit of thy cattle, and the fruit
of thy land, until thou be destroyed: which also shall not leave
thee either corn, wine, or oil, or the increase of thy kine,
or flocks of thy sheep, until he have destroyed thee. And he
shall besiege thee in all thy gates, until thy high and fenced
walls come down, wherein thou trustedst, throughout all thy land:
and he shall
besiege thee in all thy gates throughout all thy land, which
thy God hath given thee.
Stand now with thine enchantments, and with the multitude
sorceries, wherein thou hast laboured from thy youth; if so be
be able to profit, if so be thou mayest prevail. Thou art wearied
multitude of thy counsels. Let now the astrologers, the stargazers,
monthly prognosticators, stand up, and save thee from these things
shall come upon thee. Behold, they shall be as stubble; the fire
burn them; they shall not deliver themselves from the power of
flame: there shall not be a coal to warm at, nor fire to sit
before it. Thus
shall they be unto thee with whom thou hast laboured, even thy
merchants, from thy youth: they shall wander every one to his
none shall save thee. (Isaiah
The promise to German believers in the Word of God: Associate
yourselves, O ye people, and ye shall be broken in pieces; and
all ye of far countries: gird yourselves, and ye shall be broken
gird yourselves, and ye shall be broken in pieces. Take counsel
and it shall come to nought; speak the word, and it shall not
God is with us. For the LORD spake thus to me with a strong hand,
instructed me that I should not walk in the way of this people,
Say ye not, A confederacy, to all them to whom this people shall
confederacy; neither fear ye their fear, nor be afraid.
- To the remnant of believers in Germany
after all this hardship: For I am
persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities,
nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height,
depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from
of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:38-39)
C H A P T E R .3