Prove Me The Lord Says

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Seasick on a bunk in a room with thirty-four other women, I was trying to
talk myself into calming down. “Biting off more than I could chew” was my
middle name already then. The large troopship I had boarded in 23

Bremerhaven, Germany was climbing twenty foot waves maneuvering
through the foamy saltwater. It was January of 1947 and freezing cold in the
middle of the Atlantic. Two weeks it was going to last, before we would
anchor in New York. The oily odor mixed with the smell of fish and
cigarette smoke was causing my stomach to rise every time I attempted to
get on deck to satisfy my curiosity. Incapacitated from experiencing the joy
of adventure, I laid there wondering what to do about my condition. No one
was chaperoning me. Help did not seem within reach, because I was shy and
just sixteen. The ship was pointing west cutting through the ocean.
A whole new life was about to begin for me. My family had lived in Niagara Falls by Buffalo, New York for seven years and returned to Germany in 1933, a year well remembered by millions. Adolf Hitler came into power 1933 and we as a family were about to experience Nazism then quite different from the American life style.
There were three little girls. One of the sisters had to stay behind in New York. She was an invalid. As it turned out in Germany it was an intuitive decision, which saved my sister’s life. Invalids had no place in Hitler's society. Remaining in the U.S. allowed her to live to the age of 15. My family planned to come back to New York but life has a way of taking controls out of our hands and going off in other directions.
My dad began building his own business and became quite successful under the Hitler Regime without having to join the party and that wasn’t so easy. To get privileges one would usually have to join. In my mother and dad’s case good family names gained them many privileges that were not available in the U.S.
Adolf Hitler was an occultist, which had effects on many years of my life. Martin Luther the reformer was the only theologian I grew up with. I was always an activist and my curiosity knows no limits. It is extraordinary where it led me over time.
The first thing the family, grandparents, insisted on when my family arrived back in Germany was baptism. I was three and needed to get baptized according to the Lutheran belief. At fourteen in the Lutheran teachings is confirmation. At the parish we attended two years of classes to make us eligible for confirmation. Religion was part of the public school curriculum. Hitler was supposedly a Christian like many politicians to get elected. There were no child labor laws in Germany. In fact Hitler encouraged the Hitler Youth to work to help farmers since the men were all drafted in 1939 to go to war. The women had to take the place of their men at home. Our business had to continue without my father.
Just remember now when I share this that I was an innocent child at six when two major events happened. They were first grade and the Hitler Youth. I still remember how I was looking forward to wearing a sport shirt with the swastika on the breast area It is amazing that Hitler could not wait to hang his evil symbols on all his German folk including the children. Does it remind you of the Mark of the Beast? The fact that I was looking forward to it shows indoctrination had taken place. In the U.S. we call it fads. In raising kids you get it when they get into school. They won’t wear clothing that is out of style. It has a tendency to unify people. Hitler’s focus was on unity of the Fatherland and they were all to be purebred Germans.
I later traced my roots in Germany and found it still had a caste system, which I traced back to the twelve hundreds when Freemasonry became a means of segregating people into groups of similar professions, interests, political persuasions and wealth. One’s future depended on the segment of society one was born into. In one sense it was protective but in another restricting. People had to stay in their own levels. In our case we were independent business people in the hotel business.
My parents were not only perfectly suited to each other, but also very much in love. My mother insisted my father was her one and only. Families in Europe families stay in the same locations for hundreds of years. Family names are just about the most important possession a male can have. Females marry, but men have to watch over their surname carefully.
Honoring one's name was a high priority. The whole family depended on it. A worthy name meant a good credit rating automatically. Fortunately, my family line was such. My mother and father's families had lived in the same location for hundreds of years.
In Europe, young people began thinking about marriage at fourteen. Matchmaking often came through parents especially when there were businesses involved. Having them and grandparents near, secured plenty of coaching. Love was a hope but not considered essential. A strong economic existence was the basis for a good life. It meant having afternoon coffee and pastry breaks; playing cards till two o clock in the morning, smoking cigars, and having a good, clear, foamy glass of beer with a ham sandwich. Walking through the woods for an hour was also a treasured activity. Emphasis was on the simple life. They worked hard, but also cultivated special moments. My state of mind at sixteen was marriage and motherhood. I was dreaming about having a large family.
By the time the war broke out in 1939, my dad had three major businesses going. In the city he was running a nightclub and bowling alley and in the country a hotel. Everyone in the family had to do their part with assigned tasks. Children were told they were to inherit everything, which motivated them to work hard. There was no depression, boredom, nor lack of friends. People had known each other for generations. Life was wholesome.
The nightclub in the city was open till four in the morning seven days a week. Every month my father hired a new band and entertainers and my mother stood behind the bar to fill orders for the waitresses and customers. Keeping track of us little girls was not too easy for them. When a car hit my sister we moved to the hotel in the country. My father found a buyer for the city businesses.
The country was ideal for children. The little town of two thousand inhabitants was a resort on a beautiful lake. A boat dock kept five rowboats from drifting off and sprawled onto the lake. Paddle boats and seaweeds were high enough to hide in. Ice-skating in the winter and swimming in the summer kept us happy between chores. The lake framed by a lushly cultivated forest of a variety of trees and the lake had a mysterious island in the middle of it. On Saturdays people swept the sidewalks. Life simply revolved around little gardens, raising a pig or two, geese, ducks, chickens and dogs and cats, very uncomplicated and cherished.
If a child takes life serious that would be a time for decisions how to live life. Mine was to have lots of kids with a good husband for life and living life according to God’s teaching. I was attracted to church. I hung around the big organ to help keep it going. Air had to be pumped by standing on boards that went up and down. If I wasn’t there, I was watching over the family grave site planting and weeding keeping it looking good. Another favorite place was my old grandpa’s garden with strawberries, cherries and everything imaginable to harvest. He had arthritis, lived alone and needed help. Every so often I had to get coal for his stove in a wagon from a distributor at least an hour walk away. The family across from our place had a grocery store run by a mother of two kids. She had an open leg that would not heal. I spent time there to help in the grocery store and with her kids. I still hear my mother calling me across the parking lot to tend to the garden, animals or clean the house.
Gardening and growing a whole variety of fruits and vegetables, I adored. My mother hummed a tune under her breath and I sang along. There were never ending chores with the three-day laundries on scrub boards and big pots for boiling of clothes. Although frozen water pumps defrosted with heated water, table cloths had to be part of the setting for customers.
Sundays revolved around handmade ice-cream and dishes up to the ceiling. My father was strict and demanded perfection. Obedience was easy for me. When his or her voice called, there was no hesitation. Teachers and parents were familiar with the rod to maintain order.
On the shores of the forest was a red brick, old Lutheran Church with a high steeple reaching up into the sky. It had large clanging bells that rang through the village on Sundays. At weddings and funerals they reminded people to come together to celebrate or mourn. The church and the 700-yearold tree in town were the big tourist attractions. The church held a carved altar that was famous for it's artist. A jealous man had thrown acid on the artist’s eyes and blinded him.
My father had just completed reconstructing the restaurant. He had built a dance floor in the garden and terraces surrounded with glass walls to shelter guests from breezes across the lake. Pansies were lining brick flower boxes. Flagstones framed the large well-kept lawns. Sometimes we had coffee and pastry there ourselves and marveled at father's ingenuity.
World War II had been going on for six months when we received the letter stating: "report for duty in the German Infantry, immediately!" My mother found herself suddenly in charge of the business and her three children. The draft notice reached my dad at age thirty-six. He had not joined any party and had suffered discrimination that continued during the war. He spent five years in the trenches in the infantry and on all fronts.
That became a nightmare for my mother. His profession proved to be a God sent. It kept him cooking for soldiers slightly behind the front lines. Separation from his family lasted six years.
The Hitler regime had been in total control for seven years and was very visible and audible. Young children had to hail every schoolteacher and people in authority by throwing their hand in the air at an angle with palm down. Hitler decreed that each child at age six enter the Hitler youth. It was mandatory to come to meetings on Saturdays to sing and march through the streets in uniform. My mother was constantly in trouble with the leaders because she needed us for chores and tried to keep us home. Hitler kept youth separate by gender. The activities revolved around discipline, music and sports.
The hard part was singing patriotic songs for hours holding one’s arm up in the air saluting flags. There was much talk in school about the fatherland, patriotism and loyalty. I played the accordion and patriotic marches were the theme of those days, many of them. When the war broke out, all the songs related to the soldiers fighting for the fatherland. People's attitudes were full of enthusiasm and high expectation for the future in spite of everything. Life was not what one would expect in a war because of music. Life went on as usual. My mother’s motto was that man gets used to anything.
Hitler had won the people over by giving them what they wanted most. His regime geared into mass-producing housing projects and cars. He made cheap cruises available to the working class. The economy was overflowing with jobs because Hitler’s focus was on the working class. He was on speaking tours constantly. His excitement saturated all of Germany. His powerful demeanor demanded respect for authority. People were in fear of him. On the other hand he promised people a secure future.
As the Nazi party developed, they began monitoring people. The German `Partei' had enlisted civilians who were endorsing the organization, placed them in uniforms like the Hitler youth for meetings and identification with the leadership. Otherwise they were in civilian clothes. Neighbors were spying on neighbors. The people, who did not agree and voiced it, disappeared without notice to family members. Not everyone joined the Nazi party, which was to their disadvantage economically and physically.
Historical writings state that only five percent of the population was active in Nazi party of the adult population. My mother taught us early not to run in groups and to remain silent if possible. My girlfriend's father found himself in a camp one day. Until his release nobody knew what happened to him. He had a reputation of a self-made, freethinking merchandiser. Nazi's had taken him to a small detention center for molestation purposes.
Someone reported his anti Hitler comments. He said they tried to break him down by making him submit to demoralizing acts, including crawling through sewers. He said, he got through by determining not to falter. They finally released him. This incident taught me that the environment could be controlled by self-restraint and was my first contact with willpower. The regime forbade listening to shortwave radios. Censoring of the media was no secret. Cinema houses presented documentaries of the war. There was not a sign of what was going on behind closed doors. Living in little sleepy villages in northern Germany, it never occurred to people what was going to happen next. People say that Germany is the size of Texas, 267,000 square miles. It is smaller, 181,000 square miles in size. The population is the opposite. In mid nineteen hundreds, Texas had a population of 6,400,000 and Germany has ten times that,. 66,000,000 people live in it. The density caused large losses of human lives during the war. It has many little farm villages and big cities. The cities are mutually exclusive specializing in factories, shipyards, tourist attractions and such.
Adolf Hitler was not originally a German citizen. Christened in the little Roman Catholic parish church in Braunau, Austria, confirmed his name to be Adolf Hitler, born on April 20, 1889. Ironically Buddha’s birthday is April 20, and he displays a swastika on his chest in Hong Kong. Biographers wrote that Hitler had an exceedingly happy childhood. As a choirboy and server in the chancel of the Lambach Church, he saw a carving of a swastika for the first time. He was fond of pointing out later that he had serious plans of becoming a priest, and take Holy Orders. His upbringing was at the Benedictine Monastery deeply involved with occult teachings. This came to the surface later in life. He did not smoke and avoided alcoholic drinks and was reportedly a Vegetarian for many years. There is a strong chance that he was a virgin, although the Mormons claim that he had a wife in his early years. I have never heard that anywhere else.
Going back in Hitler’s life a bit, Hitler enlisted in World War I. Both sides used gas. On the 13th of October 1918 Hitler found himself gassed and blinded. Pasewalk is a small garrison town 140 miles northeast of Berlin. His blindness was temporary, and his doctors diagnosed the problem as `hysteria'. During his stay at the hospital Hitler claimed to have heard `voices', which he likened to those, heard by Joan of Arc. Those voices told him that he was selected by God to be Germany's messiah. He would save Germany from the claws of international Jewry.
Conditions in Germany had grown progressively worse after the First World War. In later 1918 the German mark was worth nearly 24 cents, but before the end of 1921 it had dropped to 1 1/2 cents. In 1922 the value went to 1/4 cent, and by early 1923, 7,000 marks purchased one U.S. dollar. By midyear a dollar could buy about 150,000 marks, and before the summer was over, one million. It was a dark period of chaos, desperation and for many, actual starvation. In 1920 hunger was widespread.
Hitler's faith in his future was `unshakable'. As an eighteen year old he did not doubt that he would some day possess the money and power necessary to carry out even the most grand of his projects. He was a fervent and incessant reader of both popular and technical books on architecture and art. Hitler’s private books were many volumes on nutrition, health and health food, folk medicine, homeopathy, miracle healing, the occult and magic symbols. In 1932 Adolf Hitler became a German citizen. Eva Braun became his mistress after three years of acquaintance.

On January 30th, 1933 Reichs Chancellor Paul von Hindenburg appointed Hitler. "If these elections help us to place 60 to 70 of our agitators into the various parliaments, then the state itself will help to equip our fighting machinery and pay for its upkeep. Let no one think that parliamentarianism is our Damascus we come as enemies! We come amongst you as the wolf comes amongst the sheep," Hitler remarked.
Though he had never left the Catholic Church, Hitler discontinued paying church taxes after 1933. After 1933 Goebbels became Hitler's Minister of Propaganda and Enlightenment, perfecting his policy of `the big lie.' He was dynamic and unscrupulous derived from agony of a clubfoot. All civil rights and protections were cast aside. Many of the prisoners were beaten, tortured, or even murdered. He increased from 100,000 to 300,000 the membership of the swaggering, radical and severe storm troopers. The Nazi Party, which had swelled to nearly 3,000,000 (5%) out of 60,000,000 populations soon after Hitler became Chancellor. Hitler used the SS as his private executioners. He descended in person on his old friend Rohm at a Bavarian resort for a SA conference.

A sudden and savage bloodbath followed. Rohm had helped put Hitler in power, and murdered other SA leaders and aides. Hitler had taken the law wholly into his own hands. Germany permitted only parties or organizations within the Nazi structure. Economic crisis of the postwar years marked by mass unemployment. currency inflation strengthened extremist parties and wiped out a large fraction of the middle class. Extreme nationalists adopted terrorist tactics and merged with the National Socialist party. In 1929 another mass unemployment and virtual bankruptcy of Germany brought major gains to communists. The dictator abolished powers of state government and became the focal point of every aspect of German life. A state of hypnotic communion developed between this leader and his faithful followers. Germany awake! Using magical power and simple imagery, Hitler taught people to believe in themselves. He won the hearts of the German people as the savior of the world on the brink of disaster. He was the embodiment of an Adam-god that spawned the most monstrous careers in history.
Hitler and his inner circle spread fear, but millions flocked to his banners and people's lives meant nothing to them. Adolf was a loud mouth activist, passionate and angry, studying the audience with a manic intensity, speech after speech. He kept changing with the mood of the people. He saw their reactions and adjusted to the public's needs. He gave them what they needed to get their attention: jobs, fun, a reason for existence and social programs. Keeping the crowd waiting raised the tension and masses switched off thinking processes. In awe they listened to descriptions of goals he set for them as a mighty folk. He formed many personal relationships with people in the crowds. People did not realize this leader's motivation. It was vengeance. His goal was to transfer the vengeance to his audience.

It took three years to organize into a tight party that stopped at nothing and attracted thousands. Hitler took full advantage of conditions and they flocked to him. The middle class pinned their hope on him. He wanted to do it alone. He did not accept bribes. He was as an Omnipresent Messiah, engineered with precision. He was on the road full time speaking about the future, tearing down social barriers, arising into a new community of the people. People convinced they could count on him were hundreds and thousands of the middle class and the poor. By 1935 he was promoting family fun and folklore. Souvenirs of Hitler became big business. He promoted eager participation in work and developing ability Work began on the Autobahn. He had posters throughout Germany of young healthy men and women expressing energy dynamics that served to restore national pride quickly..
During rallies display of thousands of flags flaunted a new order. On top of flagpoles was an eagle on a wreath with a swastika in the middle. Hitler had a fascination for Geometry. He celebrated many memorials with a spectacular display of large blocks of people marching honoring death rather than life. He had passion for night ceremonies with mystical rituals and fires. With upraised arms, hailing Hitler and their new flag, people experienced bliss, excitement and happiness listening to him describing their future. For a little while life became good and employment was plentiful. The regime worked hard on their image and developed many events to raise up Hitler's image. They advertised strength through joy, the good life and large families.
Community is everything, the individual nothing. The world was under the impression of peace with a modern industrial state leading the world. Magical, sinister blood banners, hundreds of them, garnered with a large Sun burst topped by swastikas embracing Adolf’s thundering voice echoing: "Germany in front of us and Germany behind us and Germany in us!" These blood banners received special treatment from the Fuehrer (Adolf Hitler). He touched every flag physically and performed a ritual to instill the importance of ceremony and idolatry. A passion for architecture, Adolf stood like a god, fulfilling his wildest dreams in constructing monuments to his taste. On his fiftieth birthday, there was a massive military parade. Hitler was a master in the art of deception. He thought of war only and became commander in chief as savior of the world.
Authority based on terror in `The Third Reich' enforced free speech and freedom of assembly. Later authorized house searches without warrant and seizure of property without due process became prevalent. A show of force eliminated opposition. Many former doubters got the point quickly and conformed to Hitler’s bold decisions. His only opponents were the Catholic and Lutheran Churches and they were tax-supported institutions. Hitler crushed all opposition in the `Blood Purge' of 1934.
European leaders flocked to him to hear his `will'. Herman Wilhelm Goehring found himself in charge of the air force, the Gestapo (secret police) and the German economy in 1937. Hitler's inner circle had other mystics with their own agenda. The practice of astrology by this group was public knowledge. Kubizek, who observed personal situations told of Adolf's anger: "...The eyes glittered. There was something sinister about them. He stood for hours in front of a mirror practicing his stare. The goal was to melt an opponent with a glare that was straight from the pit. Few opponents left meetings with Hitler unaffected."
Adolf Hitler not only told 66 million people he would meet their physical needs but preyed on their biblical illiteracy. His favorite subject was the oppression of Germans by the Jewish bankers. Hitler often compared himself favorably with Jesus and thought himself to be on a `great mission' of freeing Germany from the Jews.
`Wolf' was Hitler's personal namesake and a fascination for him. The name `Adolf' is a modern derivative of the older Germanic name `Athalwolf' correlating to `noble wolf'. The SS, Hitler's private army, called by him affectionately: `My pack of wolves’, who would `soon be covered with blood'. In the Scriptures Satan and his cohorts are sometimes defined as wolves.
The police kept a registry of all residents and transients. All people in Germany had to report change of addresses within two weeks. On Nov. 14, 1935, the Nazis issued a definition of how to differentiate a Jew. A mandate went out for all families to trace their genealogy four generations to target Jewish ancestors and report their findings for a detection of tainted blood. It was Himmler who ordered the famous Hitler horoscope of January 30, 1933, the day on which Hitler came to power.

That horoscope made Josef Goebbels resort to astrology during the last two weeks of their lives. In charge of propaganda astrological information suited his purposes to proclaim a positive agenda for Hitler. His office released alleged astrological predictions of German victory. The horoscopes predicted the outbreak of war in 1939 and three years of extreme hardship and privation, culminating in 1948 with the emergence of a Greater German Reich. These predictions were tools to keep people from getting nervous about their future. Occultists know that astrology is a farce.
If Adolf Hitler and his disciples were Christians, as some people think they helped God, Colossians 2:20 could be applied to settle that question once and for all: "Wherefore if ye be dead with Christ from the rudiments of the world, why, as though living in the world, are ye subject to ordinances,” Its obvious God did not employ them. The Scriptures Hitler was addressing were Deuteronomy 18:14, where God addresses the Jews: "For these nations, which thou shalt possess, hearkened unto observers of times, and unto diviners: but as for thee, the LORD thy God hath not suffered thee so to do.” "Their sorrows shall be multiplied that hasten after another god: their drink offerings of blood will I not offer, nor take up their names into my lips.” (Psalms 16:4)
Speaking of drink offerings of blood, German’s had several dishes that involved pig’s blood. One was made of vinegar and blood with large wheat balls, the other was bloodwurst for sandwiches. Had they known Psalms 16:4, they would have refrained from eating blood. “If thou wilt not observe to do all the words of this law that are written in this book, that thou mayest fear this glorious and fearful name, THE LORD THY GOD;” (Deuteronomy 28:58) This prophecy applied to Adolf Hitler and his folk who had their own god to worship. "Moreover all these curses shall come upon thee, and shall pursue thee, and overtake thee, till thou be destroyed; because thou hearkenedst not unto the voice of the LORD thy God, to keep his commandments and his statutes which he commanded thee: And they shall be upon thee for a sign and for a wonder, and upon thy seed for ever. Because thou servedst not the LORD thy God with joyfulness, and with gladness of heart, for the abundance of all things; Therefore shalt thou serve thine enemies which the LORD shall send against thee, in hunger, and in thirst, and in nakedness, and in want of all things: and he shall put a yoke of iron upon thy neck, until he have destroyed thee.
“The LORD shall bring a nation against thee from far, from the end of the earth, as swift as the eagle flieth; a nation whose tongue thou shalt not understand; A nation of fierce countenance, which shall not regard the person of the old, nor shew favour to the young: And he shall eat the fruit of thy cattle, and the fruit of thy land, until thou be destroyed: which also shall not leave thee either corn, wine, or oil, or the increase of thy kine, or flocks of thy sheep, until he have destroyed thee. And he shall besiege thee in all thy gates, until thy high and fenced walls come down, wherein thou trustedst, throughout all thy land: and he shall besiege thee in all thy gates throughout all thy land, which the LORD thy God hath given thee.” (Deuteronomy 28:45-52)
“Stand now with thine enchantments, and with the multitude of thy sorceries, wherein thou hast laboured from thy youth; if so be thou shalt be able to profit, if so be thou mayest prevail. Thou art wearied in the multitude of thy counsels. Let now the astrologers, the stargazers, the monthly prognosticators, stand up, and save thee from these things that shall come upon thee. Behold, they shall be as stubble; the fire shall burn them; they shall not deliver themselves from the power of the flame: there shall not be a coal to warm at, nor fire to sit before it. Thus shall they be unto thee with whom thou hast laboured, even thy merchants, from thy youth: they shall wander every one to his quarter; none shall save thee.” (Isaiah 47:12-15)
The promise to German believers in the Word of God: “Associate yourselves, O ye people, and ye shall be broken in pieces; and give ear, all ye of far countries: gird yourselves, and ye shall be broken in pieces; gird yourselves, and ye shall be broken in pieces. Take counsel together, and it shall come to nought; speak the word, and it shall not stand: for God is with us. For the LORD spake thus to me with a strong hand, and instructed me that I should not walk in the way of this people, saying, Say ye not, A confederacy, to all them to whom this people shall say, A confederacy; neither fear ye their fear, nor be afraid.” (Isaiah 8:9-21)
To the remnant of believers in Germany after all this hardship: “For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Romans 8:38-39)

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